Request to the hive mind of the flist

[thismaz]

I rebuilt my computer at Christmas and carelessly seem not to have saved the location of a couple of stories. I've been looking for them for a while now and since I know I got them from recs, I have finally given up on looking and am asking, instead.

Since I am not a member of many Torchwood communities, I figure I probably got the recs from one of you, but in spite of trawling back through the journals of the obvious suspects, I am still at a loss. Hell, one of you might have written them *hopes*

The first is a very haunting Jack/John story, although no names are used. Written in the second person, from John Hart's POV, and set during the timeloop, it is basically about what made John the John we see on screen - his destruction and reconstruction at Jack's hands. It's one of those stories that comes back to my mind occasionally. I'm not sure I will ever read it again, but unless I can find it, I don't have a chance to decide not to.

Thank you sueworld2003 it is I Nothing But To Please His Fantasy which can be found here - http://paperclipbitch.livejournal.com/91137.html

The second is altogether lighter (which would not be difficult). It's a John/Xander story. Post Chosen and set, I think, in Scotland. Xander is thinking about Spike and meets John. The meeting helps him resolve some issues. It is a shortish one-shot, one-night-stand story.

And thank you to sparrow2000 for ID'ing twilightofmagic's Out of the Shadows, which is here - http://community.livejournal.com/spring_with_xan/116298.html

Any help would be most appreciated. All help was much appreciated.